Yaten No Omoi - Yaten's feelings- ~Part 1- Shinjitakunakatta~ Well this is my first fic with Yaten as the main character. This is just something I thought of as I was watching one of the episodes of stars. To all Yaten and Minako fans, I'm sorry to disappoint you but this isn't a yaten and Minako fic, but I still hope you will read this with an open mind. And I must say, there is a few Japanese expressions in here, but I have translated all of them, so no fear. ^_^ 'blah blah' = Yaten is thinking to himself. ('') The first part in italics is in the first part of the stars season when the lights and girls didn't know each others' identities. The rest takes place in the stars season after the episode of the amusement park, where Usagi went to see the concert of the three lights even though was forbidden to by the outers. Remember, Seiya is injured. Disclaimer: No, I don't own Sailormoon or Yaten -_-;; So don't get all vexed and sew me and take all my money. K thanks. "Odango, ne how'd you do on the test?" Usagi turned to face Seiya. Her lips turned downwards to form a frown. Seiya gave out a laugh and held up his paper to reveal the 100 that was written in bright red. Usagi looked up in amazement. "Well, if you want, I could tutor you, you know, enlighten you with my superior knowledge." Usagi rolled her eyes, "doesn't sound like one who was about to be held back a few days ago." "That was because of the musical!" He was only met with a mocking smile, "It was!" Yaten sat back in his seat watching the two bicker. 'Why does Seiya bother with such a girl?' ********** *********** 1 month later, when the starlights and Sailormoon know each other identities. "Seiya, Ill leave this medicine on the counter." "Thanks." "Take one every six hours with plenty of water." "Thanks Taiki - -" Seiya suddenly had a pain in his head. Taiki rushed to his side. "Seiya, are you okay?" "Its because you jumped in front of that girl and took the shot." "Yaten.." Taiki acknowledged the entrance of his friend. Seiya grew silent. "Really Seiya, I don't understand what you were thinking!" He shifted his eyes to the bandage that covered Seiya's head. "What's so important about her.." "Yes, I agree, it seems all she is is an interference, causing such an injury." "It was MY will, it's not her fault." Yaten gave an exhausted sigh, "Seiya, will you please put your feeling aside, we have a mission." Taiki gathered the pile of papers on the desk. "We have an appearance on a show, I have another appearance in a show as a host in the evening, so I will be a little late but Yaten will be back in the afternoon." Taiki followed by Yaten walked towards the door. "Don't forget to take the painkillers." ******** ************ The two walked out from the studio. "I have another program after this." Taiki turned to Yaten, "What will you be doing for the rest of the day?" "Home." "Good, you can see how Seiya is doing." He turned towards the car. "Then, Ill see you when I get home." ****** ********** Yaten slumped down on the bench. He could hear the giggling of the small children playing in the sandbox. He didn't want to go home, just yet. He had too many things to think about. His Princess. Why wasn't she answering their repeated messages to her? We sing everyday, for her, and yet we have no replies. Was she okay..or maybe she...Where was she - - He felt a shove on his leg. He looked down to meet a small girl. The girl looked up at the blank expression that lay on the face of the young man and smiled. "Chibi Chibi?" "Chibi Chibi-??" Usagi looked in all directions, "Chibi Chibi, whered you go? Chibi Chib - -" Usagi found herself standing in front of one of the most people she would not have wanted to meet that day. "Yatenkun.." Yaten got up and gathered his things. "Matte (wait).." Yaten walked past her. "I want to apologize." He stopped. "For the injury. I didn't mean to cause....Is he any better? I haven't seen him from the concert, when he fainted.." Yaten broke the silence that he had continued. "Obviously not. Its not of your business anyway." "I - -I'm sorry, if there's anything I can do.." "The best thing you could do is to stay away." He didn't know what she was thinking. He analyzed from the silence that she finally understood that she could do nothing. He started to walk away and turned to the back of Usagi. "Seiya wa yappari baka da.(is stupid for falling for a girl like you)" ************ ******************* "Seiya, what are you doing?" Yaten opened the door to his room. "No - -Nothing." He put the receiver back on the table. "Seiya.." He put his hands over his head in an exhausted expression. "Gomen, doukashiteru (somethings wrong with me)..." Yaten couldn't believe how blind Seiya was becoming. 'It was that girl, that girl has been brainwashing him.' He grabbed his jacket and umbrella. "Where are you going?" "To the convenience store." He walked through the rain. Each step becoming faster than the one before. He was furious, these earthlings, and their stupid ... He turned the corner, he was sure her house was near here, the tsukino residence. "Tsukino" 'This house.' He rang the doorbell. The door opened. "Chibi chibi?" He knelt down. "Where is your sister?" "Chibi?" "YOUR SISTER.." "Chibi....Hika, Hikawa Ginga!" "Hikawa Ginga?" Chibi Chibi knodded her head up and down. ********** ****************** "Usagi It's starting to rain hard, please come in." Usagi didn't listen. She just kneeled and clasped her hands together and was chanting. 'What was she doing?' "Usagi Please. Its dark, and its freezing, at least take a rest..." She wasn't listening, she just kept mumbling words under her breath. The rain began to fall harder. "Usagi, you'll catch a cold.." 'What was she doing in her school uniform..?' "Usagi you cant keep this up forever! You've been doing this ever since you got home from school.." 'What is this..?' But she wasn't listening. And the rain grew harder. He didn't know what made him, but he did. He walked, not understanding how, or what made his legs move. When he realized he was next to her. "Please kamisama (god) look after Seiya." 'Nani..(what)?' "It was all my fault." 'Stop..' "I know he's not the most modest person. He could even be arrogant sometimes.." 'Stop...' "But he's a good guy." Her hair wasn't in those 'odangos' as Seiya always called her. The rain had been so hard, her hair was in array and untangled, her golden hair fell on the ground. "Usagi..." Rei walked up from behind her and tried to cover her with a sweater. But it just slid off her shoulders. "Please, it was all my fault.." 'What gives you the right..' "Onegai Kamisama.." He couldn't take it anymore. 'Doushite (why)....?' The rain made a faint sound every time a drop fell upon her body. And then, all sound stopped and not one drop of water fell upon her. "Please .. Kamisama - -" She looked up to see what had happened. "Yaten.." Now the rain fell upon himself. "Doushite..?" "Kamisama will always answer to our wishes. You told me to stay away from him, so I am, I found another way I could help him, I'm praying to our kamisama." He couldn't understand. After he had said all those things. But most, he didn't understand why he was holding out his umbrella for her. Why was he getting himself wet? 'She's brainwashing him. She's an interference. Its all her fault." There wasn't a doubt in her smile. 'It was all her fault.' Her smile, so innocent. She began coughing, "Usagi!" Her smile, even in the midst of the rain, was shining. 'All her fault." "Usagi. Are you okay!?" 'All her...' All the strength from her body seemed like they were being stolen. She couldn't lift her head up anymore. Her head was so heavy.. "Usagi!" 'All..' "Yatenkun." 'All her fault... then why did I catch her when she fell..?' "We need to get her indoors, follow me." Rei led the way inside the ginga. 'Its all her fault...then why am I carrying her in my arms? Why are my legs moving? Why am I following this girl? Why am I helping them? Why am I carrying such a heavy girl...? So heavy...' *********** ********** He sat on the cushion beneath him. "Yatenkun, here." He was handed a towel. "Dry yourself with this, Let me get a warm blanket for Usagi." He held the towel in hi hand. "No...I need to keep praying." "Usagi, please. Just rest." "Demo (but)..." 'what was wrong with this girl? Why was she doing this?' "Demo, Reichan..Seiya...it was all my fault.." "Baka.." Usagi and Rei turn to the low voice. "Baka...." He looked up at Usagi. "Why are you so stupid?" He got up and made a fist. "Its none of your business." "Yamette(stop) Yaten!" Rei was afraid he was going to hit Usagi. "Why..? Why are you smiling..?" "Because, I can tell how much you care for Seiya." "Doushite (why)..?" "Beause of your tears." She lifted a finger to wipe the stray of a tear that fell down his cheek. ******** *********** "I'm going to call a taxi." He couldn't take it anymore. He couldn't stay there any longer. "e? Yatenkun..matte (wait).." He got up and shut the door behind him. ********* ************ "Yaten, where were you?" Taiki looked up from his book as Yaten opened the door to their apartment. He didn't want to talk. "Yaten?" He took off his shoes. "Yaten? I thought you would be home by now." "The convenience store." Taiki gave him a look. "For three hours?" "I'm going to sleep." He shut the door behind him. He didn't bother to change, he just laid himself on his bed. The rain hadn't stopped yet. He put his hands over his face. He could hear the rain. "That girl," He paused to take a breath. "Mabushisugiru(too bright/warm)....." ********** ************************ "Konekochan, are you okay?" "Harukasan, Michirusan." "We heard you caught a cold last night." "that you fainted in the rain..?" "I'm fine." She smiled. "Yatenkun carried me inside." Their features tightened. "We told you ..." "Harukasan, don't worry." "Haruka, we should go, let her have sometime to rest." "Soudane(yes).." "Jya matte Harukasan, Michirusan." "Rei look after her." "Hai Michirusan." "Don't let 'them' come near her while were gone." "Harukasan.." She watched as they drove off. "How rude.." "Yatenkun." "Don't get me wrong, I just came to get my jacket I left here yesterday." *********** **************** "Usagi!? What are you doing up?" "Oh, Reichan. I'm fine now." "You should be sleeping." "No I'm okay." She looked up to meet the eyes of Yaten. "Yatenkun.." "I came to get my jacket." He scanned the room for it. "Oh, yes hold on, Ill bring it." Rei left the room to get it. "Are you okay?" "Yes, thank you for carrying me yesterday, if you hadn't...then.." "You should be! I don't like physical exertion, especially carrying little girls who eat too much junk food." "demo, ureshikatta (but I was happy)" "Well duh, you would be down with influenza by now if I didn't." "Yatenkun why don't you like me?" There was a long silence. "because Seiya likes you." "e?" "and hes getting himself hurt over it." His eyebrows arched. "We have more important things to be doing, a mission." "Gomenasai (I'm sorry)" He didn't expect that. He didn't expect to hear 'I'm sorry' from her. No, she should've said it, she was right to say it, because it was her fault..it was her fault...Mabushi.. "Demo (but) I might just be starting to see why Seiya has such an interest in you." "e? nani? (what)" "kagayaiteru (you're shining) So much more than us maybe.." "That's not true, you guys are shining, to find your princess am I right?" "Nande (why).." He thought to himself.. 'Seiya, you told her.' "Seiya once said that you resemble our princess." "Me..?" "Soukamone(maybe that's true).." "Arigato, Yatenkun." "For what?" "Accepting me." "Who ever said that?" He smiled and got up as Rei brought in his jacket. "Jya ne." He didn't look back as he said his goodbye. "Ill walk you to the gate." Rei gathered her shoes. "No its okay." "its on my way." "Yatenkun, I was listening to your conversation with Usagi.." She was afraid he was upset with the pause he took. "and?" "you were nice to her, I just wanted to thankyou for that.'' "It seems Seiya is feeling better. Maybe the praying really did help." He looked up and smiled. A real smile, not one of those fake ones he would show for the audience that was watching him on television, but one he really meant. "Jya matta." ******** ************* "Yokattadesune (its great) that you're feeling better." "Arigato Taiki, Yaten, I caused a lot of trouble." "Really, you did!" "Yaten." Taiki has a sweatdrop. "Demo(but) I'm glad you're okay." He looked up at the ceiling. "It might be because of that girl." "e? Odango?" "Nevermind." He said smiling to himself. "We need to get ready, well be late for the radio program." "That's right, let me get changed." Seiya went in a hurry to his room. "What was that?" "Huh?" "Please don't mention that girl's name in front of Seiya, he might get ideas." He looked sharply at Yaten. "I hope you're not falling for her too." "Of course not, do I look stupid?" "Soudesune (you're right) gomenasai (sorry) there's just been too much going on." He got up from his chair. "I'm going to go start the car. Come out when you guys are ready." Taiki shut the door behind him. 'Me, fall for that girl? ...stupid..' *********** *************** to be continued. So, what do you think? Email me with your thoughts! ^_^ I added a lot of Japanese in this fic, was that a good thing, or bad? I don't know, it just happened! ^o^ Shinjitakunakatta means "I didn't want to believe" Actually I started this last night and finished it this afternoon, so it might not be perfect, but well.. ^_^